It was a Wednesday.

This time last year, I didn't know it, but it was going to be the worst time of my life. 

Abigail was getting ready to go to Heaven. We spent all night loving her, being with her & in the early morning she went to be with Jesus.

We went back to the Ronald McDonald House & slept for a few hours, packed up our stuff & headed home.

I remember that long drive home. It was a Wednesday. 

I remember it was a Wednesday because as we got closer to home we both looked at each other & said, "I kind of want to be in church." 

We parked around the back of the building, went through a side door & sat in the back office on a couch & just listened to the message being preached. There was a lot happening in that dark, quiet back office. We didn't hear all of the message, we didn't participate in praise & worship, we had no offering to bring, but we just needed to be in church. 

I don't think we knew it at the time, but I truly believe that was the foundation of our healing. It was as if we slammed a stake in the ground & said, "We're going to keep doing what we know to do."

It wasn't always a pretty road to walk. We didn't always feel like continuing to do what was right & sometimes we just didn't. But we never stayed there long, we knew the only way out was by doing what was right.

I can't imagine my life without my church. Not only is my church family the very best of the best, but the truth & the standard & the hope that I have gained from immersing myself in church life has kept me. 

We weren't meant to do life alone. We weren't meant to go through the hard stuff alone. We weren't meant to celebrate alone. God wants to bring us into a family. There is strength in numbers. Don't run away from the one place that tells you the truth & helps your faith. Even if the words feel like they sting, don't remove yourself from the House. Faith comes by hearing & hearing by the Word of God. Stay where the Word is preached, stay where your faith can grow, & you'll see your healing come. 

Psalm 133:1-3

A Song of Ascents. Of David. 

Behold, how good and pleasant it is when brothers dwell in unity! 

It is like the precious oil on the head, running down on the beard, 

on the beard of Aaron, running down on the collar of his robes! 

It is like the dew of Hermon, which falls on the mountains of Zion! 

For there the Lord has commanded the blessing, life forevermore.

every part of you

Never forget that the God who created the universe, created every part of you. 

It's not just a warm fuzzy saying, He really does know every hair on your head, every beat of your heart, every cell in your body & all the good/bad things you face. 

He's closer to you than the wind on your face, He knows you deeper than your deepest place & He loves you more than you can imagine. 

You were purposefully made by His hands. He wanted you & His plans for you are good. 

Trust Him with all your good & your bad, He is faithful & He will not fail you. 

Never let the "bigness" of your problem make you forget the GREATNESS of your God. 

I hope this photo inspires you to remember that the God who created such majesty & beauty & life, is the same God that designed you & He is loving you & fighting for your best right now. 

photo by Amie Willoughby

But you are the ones chosen by God, chosen for the high calling of priestly work,

chosen to be a holy people, God’s instruments to do his work and speak out for him,

 to tell others of the night-and-day difference he made for you—

from nothing to something, from rejected to accepted.

1 Peter 2:9-10 MSG

I am not alone

I am not alone in this life, in this battle, in this joy, in any moment.

Whether I feel like it or not, the TRUTH is that I am not alone. 

If I have someone with me or not, I am not alone. 

Deuteronomy 31:6

Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, 

for it is the Lord your God who goes with you. 

He will not leave you or forsake you.”

& you, my friend, are not alone either.